World Breastfeeding Week-My Breastfeeding Story

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This is a very personal story about my breastfeeding journey; in celebration of world breastfeeding week I thought I would share it. When I first found out I was pregnant with baby E I always knew I would breastfeed him for at least a year. I didn’t bother to even register myself in breastfeeding classes because I thought it is the most natural thing just like child birth; our bodies will adapt to it without me putting any effort.

Boy oh boy was I wrong!! The minutes following the birth of my son we did skin to skin and it was time to breastfeed, I remember screaming in pain but I persevered for an hour… yes AN HOUR because my son sucked for comfort and the minute they took him far from me he would scream. After an hour a midwife came back to the room and seemed surprised that he was still latched then she suggested a dummy because he’s doing it for comfort.

The next 3 days in the hospital I was breastfeeding despite the pain and my milk not come in. I even spent an entire night cluster-feeding baby E in the hospital. I remember one of the midwives said that my little one is a breastfeeding champ because he would latch and not let go. The day I was discharged from the hospital my baby has already lost more than the suggested 10% of his body weight. I was literally panicking and crying in the hospital because of his weight loss, the nurse suggested that if my milk doesn’t come in that I can give him a little bit of formula but not to worry as it is very common. I still insisted on not supplementing and to continue breastfeeding regardless of the cracked bleeding nipples and the intense pain.

We offered my baby his first bottle of formula and he drank the entire bottle, which was an indication that he was hungry. Then I decided that I would mix feed until I was confident with my supply. I started pumping every 2 hours and then power pumping to increase my supply. My supply wasn’t that great, my little champion started having nipple confusion because of the bottle and dummy. I tried different breastfeeding positions with and without the pillow (if you Google breastfeeding positions chances are we tried it all) then he started latching correctly again. I even called the breastfeeding hotline, that’s how determined I was.

When I noticed that even when I breastfeed him he still seemed hungry I started considering exclusively pumping as an alternative. I did that for about a month. I used to pump around 30ml every 3 hours if not less which was extremely discouraging because my baby was at that stage drinking 140ml bottle every 2-3 hours and I was making way less than his needs. Not to mention the mummy blues, dealing with a newborn and trying to recover from childbirth and add feeling like a failure in the breastfeeding department. I was always a high achiever and strived for good results throughout my life and I refused to fail in this.

I started researching then I came across Fenugreek and its benefits then I purchased it in tablet form. I was also taking another tablet called breastfeeding gold that boosts supply and I started drinking breastfeeding tea! I was still continuing to pump and to power pump every few days. My supply did increase but not by a lot it was still nowhere near the 140ml mark; then as any desperate first time mummy I resolved to prescription medicine when I read about Motilium (Domperidone) and its side effect in increasing milk supply.

I went to my GP to ask for the prescription he was hesitant but I insisted, Could you tell I was really stubborn? I got my prescription and I was pumping around 100ml sometimes, which was great, but it was the result of the medicine plus the tea and the herbal tablets. Every time I ran out of my prescription I went to get another because I would notice a huge drop in my supply if I don’t take the Motilium. After 2 months I decided to stop the Motilium because I was traveling overseas. My son was 5 months by then, I also decided to stop pumping at this stage and let him latch on. We managed for around another month then he lost interest and my milk dried up. During the 6 months we did breastfeed I did get my moment of glory and breastfed in public, which was something I was really anxious about; however I always wanted to do since I was pregnant because it is such a bad-a*# moment and you feel so empowered.

Now he’s a healthy almost 10 months old baby, who is meeting all his milestones and he is in the 98th percentile for his weight and height. I feel proud that I did manage to breastfeed my son even if it wasn’t exclusively. I also feel proud that I formula feed him when needed. Most people don’t know how hard I tried to exclusively breastfeed him only close family members. Until this day I get constantly questioned why I don’t breastfeed him or why we stopped!

My breastfeeding journey wasn’t what I expected to be but I’m happy that I tried and persevered through it when giving up completely was the easiest option.

How long did you manage to breastfeed your child?

Thanks for stopping by ladies

Keep Calm and Carry On Linking Sunday

21 thoughts on “World Breastfeeding Week-My Breastfeeding Story

  1. zia subhan says:

    To be honest, we got alike story about the breast feeding journey. I got questioned my self, why I don’t keep trying to breastfeed my son. After I gave birth, I took it for granted that I would breastfeed my baby. Sadly, it wasn’t to be. My husband and I tried our best, but I couldn’t produce enough breast milk. I couldn’t increase my milk supply. I couldn’t see my baby crying and crying, so I gave him formula to fulfill what he needed. I was so desperate. But, I hope when I get my second pregnancy I can have my breastfeeding preparation and manage it well before the baby birth.

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    • Samsam - Simply A Mama says:

      I think a lot of people don’t really understand how some mothers struggle with breastfeeding and milk supply and they assume that you’re feeding your baby formula because you’re too lazy or trying to keep your figure.

      I will also try to breastfeed as much as I can all my future children In Sha Allah and get prepared before I give birth which I didn’t with my son.

      Thanks a lot of commenting dear 🙂 waiting patiently for more blogposts on your blog
      Best of luck with everything sis

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  2. Sunita says:

    This is an important story to share as I doubt none of us mummies have found our breastfeeding or feeding experiences straightforward. Thanks Samsam for this honest post. It’s definitely a skill and even if you master it your baby might not be interested! #KCACOLS

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    • Samsam - Simply A Mama says:

      Hi Sunita,
      Before I had my son no one has every address how challenging breastfeeding can be to some mothers. I shared this story to let mummies (especially first time mothers) know that breastfeeding sometimes isn’t easy and you should try you’re best.There is a lot of hurdles that we overcame such as nipple confusion, latching and finally loosing interest all together.
      Thank you for stopping by and commenting 🙂

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  3. Upside Mum says:

    I breastfed my first until he was 6 months and too hungry for what I was able to provide. He was a big boy! I supplemented then and I remember crying in the shop as I bought his first formula. However, looking back now it was what he needed and I know I did the right thing. My second breastfed exclusively for 4 months til I went back to work. I could never seem to pump as much as he got when he latched on and again I had to interchange. My girl didn’t get enough from day 1, I could feel that my supply wasn’t the same as with the other two and by 1 month I had none whatsoever! I was gutted after persevering through the cracked and bleeding nipples and intense pain but I was left with no choice! I think we feel shamed when we need to change how our babies are fed and it’s not fair, especially when no one knows how much you have done to get to that point. Thanks for sharing your journey, well done for your perseverance too! #kcacols

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  4. Samsam - Simply A Mama says:

    Thanks for sharing with me your breastfeeding stories of your 3 children. you should be very proud that your tried your very best. I completely agree with you when our breastfeeding journey doesn’t go as planned we feel ashamed and disappointed not to mention getting judged by others who don’t have a clue how hard we tried.

    Thanks for stopping by, commenting and following my blog… I really appreciate it

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  5. The Mama Nurse says:

    What a journey! Kudos to you for persevering and thank you for sharing as I’m sure many moms (including myself) can relate to many of the feeling you had in those 6 months and beyond. My milk also dried up at 6 months and still have some guilt over it, but they’re all healthy and happy right!?
    #KCACOLS
    Tori @ The Mama Nurse

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  6. Samsam - Simply A Mama says:

    Hi Tori, you are right, what we need to focus on that they are healthy and happy babies regardless of they were exclusively breastfed or bottle fed… but sometimes we feel too guilty as mothers if we can’t breastfeed for one reason or another.
    Thanks for stopping by and commenting

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  7. Cheryl @ Tea or Wine says:

    I wish more mums were given the option to combination feed. I think most women think there’s only 2 options but combining bottle with breast is really good I think. Well done you for persevering, but ultimately as long as your baby is happy that is the most important thing. #KCACOLS x

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  8. Sarah - Arthurwears (@arthurwears) says:

    well done to you – it can be so hard! I am still breastfeeding now at 19 months but it wasnt easy at the start. Arthur was attached literally all the time, but I had been advised to just let it be as this would help my supply – which it did seem to (despite the soreness and bleeding….lansinoh was purchased in batch!!) He was always a frequent feeder even up until when I introduced some solids at 6 months. At 7 months he started to really bite me and break the skin so I switched to exclusively pumping for a few months until he stopped biting ( it was just a phase thankfully!) – i found my supply really dropped with pumping – my boobs just didnt want to work for a pump instead of a baby and this can be really common. Arthur could always get more directly than I could pump, so how much you pump definitely has no correlation to how much you can produce for your baby to take directly. Very confusing! Im not sure when we will stop, ill probably still be feeding when Im pregnant with another!

    Thanks so much for linking up at #KCACOLS. Hope you come back again next Sunday

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  9. Samsam - Simply A Mama says:

    That’s fantastic, I hope you continue breastfeeding him as long as you can. I do agree with you the pumps sometimes isn’t as effective as a baby, I read it in a lot of breastfeeding websites.

    I’m glad Arthur stopped biting, teething can be hell at times!! Mine bites us all the time I could imagine if I was still breastfeeding him my boobs would have definitely suffered…lol

    I hope I’ll be linking again with #KCACOLS next Sunday with another post, Thanks for stopping by and commenting Sarah

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  10. Madeline (This Glorious Life) says:

    Wow, you really were determined to breastfeed, well done you for sticking with what you wanted to do! I lasted 2 weeks with my son, and switched to formula when I realised how low it was making me, trying to pump and keep up with his appetite. Then with my daughter we had no issues and I fed her for 13 months! I’m so pleased I had the 2 different experiences as I can see both sides of the breast/bottle debate! x #KCACOLS

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  11. thesingleswan says:

    I could have written this. Your story is exactly my experience, even down to Fenugreek and breastfeeding tea. I was also incredibly stubborn and wouldn’t give up. I am really proud of myself for this, but my god it was tough. Thank you for sharing your story. Pen x #KCACOLS

    I don’t usually copy and paste links to my posts, but I also wrote about my breastfeeding story here:

    http://www.thesingleswan.com/2015/04/16/my-desire-to-breastfeed-eclipsed-the-sun/

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    • Samsam - Simply A Mama says:

      I read your breastfeeding story and loved it, thank you for sharing with me the link of your post. You should be very proud of yourself because it can be really tough and you didn’t give up. I’m glad that you were able to exclusively breastfeed after the first six weeks, which are the hardest weeks.
      Thanks for stopping by and commenting 🙂

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